Fuck You I'm Happy Being Dead!

First off, this track is a completely standalone single and will NOT be on the new album, “Monster I’ve Become”, that has been mixed during the last year by Michael Patterson and is currently getting mastered by Paul Logus.

Happy Being Dead (HBD) is something I just had to get off my chest, the lyrics in the verses are completely improvised and were recorded in a single take - the idea for this song came to me when someone said – if you're not online – you might as well be dead. And I realized, sometimes, I'd RATHER be dead than whoring on social media. I’m from the 90’s, I was who I am even before social media. So I don’t really care what people think about me. I don’t need any validation, a pat in the back or a cheer from a stranger.

So here's an anti social media song for these moments where you just don't care. You stop guilt-liking your odd relatives posts, turn off your phone and are happy being dead!

Happy Holidays!

The song is also available on all streaming services so find it and add it to your “fuck it all” playlist! :D

PRESS :

brutalresonance.com (Single Review)
side-line.com
snoozecontrol.be
regenmag.com
kaaoszine.fi (FINNISH)
anditshappening.ee (INTERVIEW in ESTONIAN)

Thoughts on music..

I am writing this on a ship, on my way to Helsinki, Finland. We're playing at Letkurock Festival tonight. Headlining the main stage is us and Frantic Amber from Sweden. Never seen them live.. Also playing tonight are Finnish bands V for Violence and Black Light discipline. We played with V before.. A few years ago. Wonder how they sound tonight..

it's our fourth festival this year. First one in Finland. Which is strange since Finland is really heavy on rock festivals each summer. But it's a start. We'll get there. For us, four festivals is already a big step ahead. And we've had really great responses from all of our shows so far. But even more pleasing to me is seeing how the shows really pull the live band together! You can have all the rehearsals you can fit in ten years but you're still not ready for a live show. You only get that stage experience and connection on an actual stage.. I love it, because during a live gig, your each move matters! You can't play half-assed.. You can't do anything half-assed or you kill the song! Everything matters and you get no second chance. So that is where the band is giving their most and I feel at home. I can really go into my songs and live them through. In a rehearsal room.. I can't. There is always a distance between me and the music, because noone is in the moment.. It's all about technique and.. Who plays what and how and where.. There is no adrenaline and no emotion... No fear. No fear of failure.

And the songs at the rehearsals,
they are dead.

Like wax statues. Lifelike, but without a soul. And we are dressing them up and making them look all pretty...That's just how it is. But on stage.. They come to life.

On a record though.. They are not dead. They are like beautiful photos, carefully edited and retouched to the last little detail to please the eyes.. well.. ears, of the listener. And they can have a clear look and feel and message. And they can have a hidden message.. And they can have a dialogue with you.. They can ask the right questions.. Or answer them.

On the record, they are God. They are the best they can be and ever achieve to be. And they have as many faces as there are people who listen to them.

That's why I don't try to appeal to anyone when I write music. Anyone but myself..

and I have wandered off that path a few times..

only to realize how wrong it is and how terribly unfair it can be to the music itself.

Never again.

There is no "No God".. yet

To whomever this may concern.

I was planning to release the "No God" video and single a few weeks ago. Well, that didn't happen. And I just realised that while everything makes perfect sense to me, most, if not all of you, are totally clueless and probably a bit confused about the situation. 

Let me fill you in on it. I owe you that. 

So.. pretty much a month back, Grete (video director) and I had pretty much most of the video complete and I had just released the "No God" single and video teaser. We were trying to come up with a suitable release date in June and making preparations for a small release party, when Grete's iMac decided it had had enough of her diabolic graphics and it will take no more.

It shot itself in the face.

Thanks to Apple being such an amazing and special and super-secret magical operation where each computer is carefully crafted by albino gnome-fairies that dwell in a unicorns... (I kept going with this thought until I became scared of myself.. I'll spare you guys and skip it) well.. you get the picture. Anyway - we ended up waiting ten days for Apple to diagnose that the iMac had in fact shot itself in the face and that the face was THUS in fact out of order and needed IN FACT to be replaced... and then we waited some more for them to send the iMac a new face (LCD panel) and pay half the machines price for the whole CONVENIENCE...

Well. After all that, Grete was pretty close to following the lead of her iMac, since we had already passed the possible release dates and the video was still unfinished. I decided that I'd rather have the video look perfect than release it prematurely just to have it out earlier. No compromise. I mean - if it's not what we want it to be - then it's not Evestus. Better release it late than half-assed. 

And then there is Alt-Fest and networking around Europe to get this band on the road and preparing for summer Festivals and still mixing the new material for autumn release..

So we are taking it real easy with the video - but it's starting to look the way it should.

In a way it all makes sense (doesn't it..) the whole "No God" period was the most difficult and challenging time for me and feels like it doesn't want to let me go, but I want to get the fuck out of that hole once and for good! 

The good news is, that the "No God" digital single has turned into a 9 track release - with only half of the tracks being remixes! It's going to be one of those "Because fuck you that's why" releases. And you'll either love it or hate it. But that's Evestus. Always has been. Fucking random, overdue and not quite what you expected. I honestly didn't think that I could keep that up - I thought after the "No God" EP that I had done everything and all that follows will be more of the same..

but I guess I just needed some time and a reason.

Thank you for sticking with us!

-Evestus