I think it's about time for an update.
I've been working on a new Evestus album since 2013 and by now, I have finished about three albums worth of material. I have made a selection for the upcoming record and these songs are the absolute heaviest tracks I've written. Some musically, others lyrically, but all of them are on a whole new level compared to anything I've released so far. So it's perhaps not very strange that they have bled me dry over the two years.. both physically and mentally. And I have become afraid of these songs.. of this album. I feel like I've lost control over it and it seems so fucking overwhelming and demanding to move on with it. But that's how I know I'm doing the right thing.
This January I dismantled the Evestus live band and took a job at one of the biggest recording studios in Estonia ( www.roundsound.ee ) as a producer and PR manager. To get out of my bunker and socialise a little - meet other artists, work with them, help them figure their shit out and see if I can't learn something about myself in the process.
I feel a lot like I did when working on "This Is Dramacore". The "Me against the world in my head" feeling. The "I am fucking worthless until this album is finished" feeling. The "I will show you goddamn maggots how it's fucking DONE!" feeling. Like then, I am once again alone. With nothing to lose. Only this time I am much stronger. Wiser. And the world is much weaker.
I will go to Tokyo for a few weeks to spend time with some psychos and adjust my aim. Refill my dried up carcass with some fresh blood...
It's the furthest away I can get from this world without leaving the fucking planet.
But I'll come back for all of you crazy motherfuckers!
I always do.
Sincerely,
The Monster I've Become